I feel happy and grateful today – for my wonderful family, Penny, my boy, best friends and life! I am bloody better give a zerooo thought of my fucked up self image– I mean, what is that suppose to mean? To the world? Who really cares if I am a size zero or a size 20? Nobody cares, really. On the other hand I care about my health, my physical condition and my well being. And as I am doing and handle things for the moment is not optimal. No matter what, I will not pick up today – I am nothing and nothing counts as long as I am not stay abstinent. That does why have to be abstinent, and I will be. I am a dreamer – but I am also a fighter. I see myself as the winner. Not a winner in terms of over you – in my own competition. “When it feels right, it is right”. Damn good this one.

I am off for a rendez vous. I call/text you later - my adorable BRANDICE !

Do not forgive to give a lot of Love. Speaking about love, my baby is “en stage de box” – and I am already missing him. My life is a bunch of emotions, but thank you God I am able to feel. Life is great and beautiful.

Love,

( My big time Salsa queen Brandice! )

So, here I am – again! How are you folks? I am not bad nor would I say I am over the moon, yet. Bar, I am working on it. There is hope. For all of us.

Never underestimates the importance of routines – that’s today’s topic. I tend to forget that more often than I really stick to it. By following a certain schedule, a routine your mind and body will adapt and feels more relaxed, safe and sound and focused. It’s not equal to a boring life, which I used to thought and associate this phenomenon to. I just know better and healthier today. This is some good elements to remind one about;

-          Try to head to bed and wake up - about the same time every night and morning.

-          Eat three meals/day containing vegetables, salad, protein and fruits (avoid sugar and flour if your are   sensible to overeat)

-          Drink plenty of water – but do not over do it

-          Some exercise – every day!

-          Surround yourself with people you love, and people who gives you what you want (again, you pick your friends)

-          Find your passion in life

-          Make a great deal of love and intimacy  (preferable with the same partner)

-          Welcome your creative side

-          Pray and mediate to connect with your inner self and your strength

-          Laugh!

-          Forgive yourself

-          Love yourself

LIVE YOUR LIFE AS IT WAS YOUR LAST DAY!

This mean to me, as soon as I have posted this post I will call my baby and tell him how much I love him.

You have a great day!

I have no reason to not feel good, content and satisfied tonight/ this morning. Still, I do. I have been over at Nadehas (she is a sing/songwriter from Australia – btw, check her out at youtube: “Nadeah Miranda”) house with some friends, high-quality energies and spirits, lovely atmosphere. Almost too good, no alcohol or other harmful substances- just understanding, love and hope. That’s all we need.  I am so grateful to have this fellowship in my daily life, people I easily can relate to. Wonderful and beautiful people, people I adore and look up to.

(Switches subject)

I do not really know why I so seldom mention him in my blog. There is such an indescribable love between us, we are an invincible, powerful and a strong and unit. We are all that the other one desire, we are all we want. Still, I can let go. I am scared, right, for what? Being abandoned? Have I ever been abandoned? No. So it does not make sense. And I am supposed to be one of the futures Psychologist? Yes, I do believe so. Tonight I experienced something totally “out of the book”. A little miracle touched my shoulder. I am capable and I can help people, first, I have to start with myself. My call is calling. There are some due obstacles, but I can cope with them. I have a long way to travel, and I will never graduate from what we call: learning by living. I will always be beginner.

(Switches subject)

I am perfection in my imperfection. I am not worse or better than you. We are all constructed equally - we have more in common rather what really separate us. I did listen to a homosexual speaker tonight, he was from The States. I am from Grebbestad. That is, geographically distant away, yet spiritually so close. I think we are all brothers and sisters. Some we happen to like more than others. But can we possibly hate? I cannot see it belongs on the mother earth. The truth tells differently. It is simple to comprehend the human mind; nevertheless, it is not easy.

After some wise phone calls, all over the world and several coffees I feel better. This night is almost over so it is not really an idea to go to bed. Penny has been snoozing for hours. Well, I am better study some French- at least it will do some good for me and Rafael’s relationship. You see, communication is A and O.

PS. It was not really my effort and purpose to make you understand this post, and have I ever written something so “all over the map”. Somehow, it needed to get out.